I'm currently in Maine on vacation visiting family. My mom and step dad live in Levant (right outside of Bangor) and Jon's family lives in Unity (near Augusta and about 45 minutes from my parents). Anyways, tomorrow I head back out to Jon's parents since I've been at my mom's all week and she goes back to work tomorrow. I hate leaving her because she gets so sad and it makes me feel guilty. She is my world, my best friend, and all I want is to see her happy. I feel terrible that I don't leave near her anymore, but Maine just isn't the place for me. I know that she's ok, but I can't help feel bad and guilty that I make her sad.
On a completely different note; we watched the movie The Freedom Writers tonight. I've seen it before, but I wanted my mother to see it. For those of you who have not been lucky enough to watch it, I strongly recommend it. When I watch it my heart breaks; the world is still broken in many places and I wonder if racial hate will ever be truly abolished.... then as I watch Ms. G (played marvelously by Hillary Swank) I think to myself how amazing it would be to make such an impact on the world... it's really an amazing and inspirational movie!!
Anyways, I should sign off now as my room is a mess and I have a lot of packing up before leaving home (again) in the morning...
Why at the age of 23 does it still hurt so much to leave home?? Why can't my mom just live in NH near me?? Like mom tells me, if we lived near each other we would still be busy with our own lives and wouldn't see one another as much as we think we would. Maybe she is right... but I still miss her everyday......
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